Monday, December 28, 2009
two thousand and nine.
In view of my upcoming schedule, I reckon that this would be the last post for the year.
Looking back, 2009 wasn't an awesome one. More than half of it sucks. It all started with the separation of the birdies, going to school with so many unfamiliar faces, unlike in jj. Times I really felt overwhelmed when you feel like you're losing your friends. Parents left and freedom overloaded. But it all kinda get better with time, Birdies mail, 09s03 wasn't so bad, the girls are awesome shit, ODAC got pretty fun too, school was manageable.
Halfway through the year, I found my interest in cheer and had awesome fun with the bunch. Flying, doing stunts and all were really enjoyable. Shortly after cheer, I came to the lowest point of the year. Uncertainty, insecurities, awkwardness, sadness, times of trying to make things right, make right decisions, look past lies, going through phases of heartaches, tears, frustration, silliness and all that. Really horrible time then. Then again, you wouldn't know.
Probably got distracted. Months of not wanting to do anything, periods of sian mode, don't feel like talking or entertaining or communicating, mornings of dreading school very badly. Screwed maths, screwed physics, screwed chinese, screwed lectures, screwed pw. Stressed. Had breakouts. Stressed. Bad things kept piling, dark thoughts kept messing my head. It bloody sucks.
Friends from all directions stood by me, especially my friend-and-talkative friend and boyf. Everyone put up with my nonsense and silliness. Gave me my comfort, gave me a hand and pulled me out from all of it. Thanks you guys, loves <3
Things got a little better though, but I was still down. Nevertheless promos kicked in and my mama came back. House got noisier, tensed atmosphere of spite. Nagging, small silly disagreements cause so much unrest. Not the best promo mugging environment, physically and mentally. Still, mugging in macs with the guys, I guess didn't really do it for me with the average grades I received. Also it didn't help that my family thought I was in bad company and wasn't serious about school at all. Bloody annoying.
Birthday wasn't all that great. But Birdies 3 year old card and girls kboxing made it all better.
Holidays came and I finally let it got, finally moved on, finally happier. Started working again in legends and rtc with a fun bunch. Realized that despite the above, I've accomplished quite a lot.
JC transition.
School punctuality(not as bad as before at least)
Gained weight.
Moved on.
Survived JC.
Worked quite a lot.
PROM!
Top flyer in pos.
Kept some friends closer.
Helped Tong boy to move on.
Meet an awesome bunch.
Class bbq.
CONQUERED PW! FTW!
Zoo outing.
I'm sure the list can go on but its 4:36am and I can't think much after this long post. OH I COMPLETED CHEM REVISION PACK :D Lovely, more to go.
Sure 2009 wasn't swell, I'm glad its over and out. I survived it without zombie invasions and I found MLIA. 2010 will be much better. Going gaga over A's already. Lovely.
Monday, December 21, 2009
SPAMMMMMAGE
Spammed Gossip Girls. Spammed Bring It On. Screwed like spam.
Must. Stop. Finding. New. Shows. To. Spam.
Haven't been to cheer lately and I'm really guilty. Bring It On sent me on a major guilt trip. Recollections of flying, core training and stunts make me wonder why on earth am I skipping cheer. Must repent. Though, with A's coming along, cheering would be impossible. Sucks. D:
Anyway Bring It On: Again, kinda sucks. Cast were ugly and not bimbo-ish.
Saturday, December 19, 2009
we need to run.
I'm having that urge to run in the middle of the night again. I've never done so because its too dangerous. Sighs.
Awesome gift exchange at cell just now. I received 6 tubes of Pringles. Awesome shit. Gonna keep poppin' and I ain't stoppin'
Friday, December 18, 2009
Tong Boy.
Tong Boy, you wouldn't get to see this.
But I just wanna thank you for getting back up to your feet, for getting back your senses, for seeing the light. Thanks for your showers of care and respect for me. I don't tell you things and that's why you most probably don't know how much you have indirectly being there for me. Times when I simply needed an outlet, somehow you made me keep it all in. They say its not good, but it works for me.
Love you boy, and stop calling me fat :D
Don't say jie don't love you, goodness.
Sunday, December 06, 2009
take a look at the sexiness
Sexayye.
Seriously damn sian about it. Have to skip 2 days work and camp, total loss of $144. Sian ji puazxszs. Cos of toes, I can't walk properly, causing my ankle to hurt rather badly. Cos of toes, I'm getting even lazier to move around. Cos of toes, I'm procrastinating to exercise. Cos of toes, I'm getting fatter, coupled with the 2 steamboats, junk fooding and another upcoming Seoul Garden.
Getting restless at home despite the to do list below. Cos of toes, I'm procrastinating to go buy a pen to do my homework. Though, I've finished reading 4 books now and cleared my promo mess 8D Awesome accomplishment. One down, many to go.
Cos of toes, moolahs are flying. It makes me a sad lazy poor fatty bom bom.Sighs.
Wednesday, December 02, 2009
AGENDA
Right now, I've got alot on my agenda, well at least that's how it feels though.
- Fill in CHEM and ECONS notes!
- Get my black skirt!
- Get SHORTS! I'm seriously running low D:
- Get new bag.
- Go for my facial already.
- KNOW MY HOMEWORK
- DO MY HOMEWORK
- STUDYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY, REVISEEEEEEEEE O:
- Get jacket.
- PICNICCCCCCCCCCCCCCCC!
- Start saving up :D
- PACK MY PROMO MESS!
- Get the laptop charger
- Pass it
Beezy weezy beeble bum. Food shopping, church and work on Saturday. Zoo reccee and work on Sunday. First aid test on Monday, do I have to study? My goodness. Tuesday to Thursday, I'll crumble in ODAC camp.
God bless my soul.