Monday, December 28, 2009
two thousand and nine.
In view of my upcoming schedule, I reckon that this would be the last post for the year.
Looking back, 2009 wasn't an awesome one. More than half of it sucks. It all started with the separation of the birdies, going to school with so many unfamiliar faces, unlike in jj. Times I really felt overwhelmed when you feel like you're losing your friends. Parents left and freedom overloaded. But it all kinda get better with time, Birdies mail, 09s03 wasn't so bad, the girls are awesome shit, ODAC got pretty fun too, school was manageable.
Halfway through the year, I found my interest in cheer and had awesome fun with the bunch. Flying, doing stunts and all were really enjoyable. Shortly after cheer, I came to the lowest point of the year. Uncertainty, insecurities, awkwardness, sadness, times of trying to make things right, make right decisions, look past lies, going through phases of heartaches, tears, frustration, silliness and all that. Really horrible time then. Then again, you wouldn't know.
Probably got distracted. Months of not wanting to do anything, periods of sian mode, don't feel like talking or entertaining or communicating, mornings of dreading school very badly. Screwed maths, screwed physics, screwed chinese, screwed lectures, screwed pw. Stressed. Had breakouts. Stressed. Bad things kept piling, dark thoughts kept messing my head. It bloody sucks.
Friends from all directions stood by me, especially my friend-and-talkative friend and boyf. Everyone put up with my nonsense and silliness. Gave me my comfort, gave me a hand and pulled me out from all of it. Thanks you guys, loves <3
Things got a little better though, but I was still down. Nevertheless promos kicked in and my mama came back. House got noisier, tensed atmosphere of spite. Nagging, small silly disagreements cause so much unrest. Not the best promo mugging environment, physically and mentally. Still, mugging in macs with the guys, I guess didn't really do it for me with the average grades I received. Also it didn't help that my family thought I was in bad company and wasn't serious about school at all. Bloody annoying.
Birthday wasn't all that great. But Birdies 3 year old card and girls kboxing made it all better.
Holidays came and I finally let it got, finally moved on, finally happier. Started working again in legends and rtc with a fun bunch. Realized that despite the above, I've accomplished quite a lot.
JC transition.
School punctuality(not as bad as before at least)
Gained weight.
Moved on.
Survived JC.
Worked quite a lot.
PROM!
Top flyer in pos.
Kept some friends closer.
Helped Tong boy to move on.
Meet an awesome bunch.
Class bbq.
CONQUERED PW! FTW!
Zoo outing.
I'm sure the list can go on but its 4:36am and I can't think much after this long post. OH I COMPLETED CHEM REVISION PACK :D Lovely, more to go.
Sure 2009 wasn't swell, I'm glad its over and out. I survived it without zombie invasions and I found MLIA. 2010 will be much better. Going gaga over A's already. Lovely.